How can I not?

I have been pretty open with my diagnosis of PCOS.  Most people are well meaning and say, "It will happen when it is supposed to happen" or "stop worrying and it will happen".   I know they mean well, but really how am I NOT supposed to think about it?  Every day of the month I have to take medicine twice a day.  I have to take medicine 7 days a month to kick start my period.  When I finally get a period I have to then take medicine on days 3-7 to help me ovulate.  Then 5 days after that I have to start peeing on a stick everyday to see if I ovulated or not.  Then I have to have sex every other day after that.  I cannot eat sugar, carbs, or consume caffeine.  I have to take extra fiber, a pre natal vitamin, an iron supplement, and another one.  I have to go to the doctor on day 21 for blood work.  Every aspect of my life revolves around having a baby.  I ask again, "How can I stop thinking about it?"  I dream about babies or not being able to have babies.  It invades my thoughts every single hour of the day. 

I know I am just supposed to enjoy this time as a wife.  I do.  I love my husband with all my heart.  He is my best friend.  Classes have started again so at least I have another distraction.  That is what everything is though...a distraction.  I don't want to talk about having babies all the time, but it just creeps up in almost every conversation.  I don't want to dwell on the negative.  This time last year I was consumed with our wedding and upcoming nuptials.  Now, I am researching the best fertility doctors that our insurance will cover.  I pour over TTC baby blogs and message boards.  I don't know what to do with myself. 

I keep praying for my miracle meanwhile I am trying to maintain my sanity.